Friday, February 15, 2013

I think it's Quarter 3 now?

I'm probably a solid month into the third quarter, and things are going really well!

The South Florida Pride Wind Ensemble is getting ready for our second annual Youth Pride Band concert, which is coming right up (Feb 24)! There's some really challenging works on the programs (I never thought Harry Potter would ever get the best of me), but the kids are holding their own, and I'm looking forward to working with them this weekend and next. Grant writing for the group is actually a lot of fun. It's totally lame and bookish, but I'm really enjoying it!

I'm still working on solo materials, but it's a bit of a mish-mash right now. I have to find a different place to perform if I want to do a recital in the upcoming months (which I do!), and I need to have some unaccompanied works ready to go as well to perform in school masterclasses or other piano-less situations. Those unaccompanied works are kind of taking priority right now.

I've been much less self-deprecating, and that alone has had such a positive impact on my daily life. There's been an important change from a "Why can't I do this? Why do I suck so much? " mindset to one where I accept my own limits and current capabilities.  Notice though, that I'm not talking about settling for less. Instead, I'm facing the very real and acceptable fact that 2012 was just not my year for makes leaps and bounds of progress in my flute-playing. I was working too much, trying to finish my thesis, there was that whole "let's move across the country" phase, and I had surrendered myself to my "failures." What I mean instead about my current mindset is that I recognize that while, no, I can't just rattle off the Leonore excerpt or the Mendelssohn Scherzo, I've done it before, and I can do it again. It'll take some time, and it'll definitely take some dedicated work, but if I could do it then, I'll do it again.

I've really been trying to take care of my physical self as well. There's a great yoga studio not that far from where I live that has a great "new students" deal that I've been trying to take full advantage of. I'll just have to make a whole new post about the amazing benefits that two weeks of yoga has given me. 

There's a lot more to talk about, but I'll save that for another day in hopes of getting myself to post here more often!